MY EXPERIENCE ps thanks tom if you ever read this

by aaron
(oldham)

HI I'M AARON I HAD A LESSON TODAY WITH THE GENESIS EXPERIENCE AND IT OPENED ME UP. I JUST WANT TO SAY THANK YOU I HAD A TERRIBLE CHILDHOOD AND I THOUGHT THAT IF I TALKED ABOUT HOW I WAS ABUSED AS A CHILD THAT I WOULD FALL APART BUT I DIDNT AND I THINK THAT ANYONE WHO HAS HAD A PROBLEM THEN YOU SHOULD TALK ABOUT IT BECAUSE IT DOES MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER.

THE FIRST TIME THAT I CAN REMEMBER OF WHEN I WAS ABUSED WAS WHEN I WAS 18 MONTHS AND THE ONLY REASON I REMEMBER IS BECAUSE OF THE SCARS MY BEDROOM WAS SET ON FIRE WHEN I WAS ASLEEP AND MY LEG ARM AND HAND BURNED SEVERELY AND THE SECOND WAS WHEN I SWORE AT MY MUM (I FORGOT 2 MENTION MY MUM IS AN ALCOHOLIC AND MY STEP DAD IS A HEROIN ADDICT)AND MY MUM GRIPPED ME BY THE HAIR AND SMASHED MY HEAD INTO A GLASS COFFEE TABLE THAT WAS WHEN I WAS ABOUT 7 YEARS OLD SO I GOT TAKEN AWAY FROM MY MUM BY SOCIAL SERVICES AND MOVED INTO FOSTER CARE.

THEN MY MUM GOT BACK IN TOUCH WITH ME WHEN I WAS 16 AND PROMISED ME SHE WAS CHANGED SO I STARTED STAYING WEEKENDS BUT NOW I WAS A BIG LAD SO SHE WAS SCARED OF ME AND I TOLD HER THAT I WASNT LIKE HER AND I WANTED TO MOVE BACK IN WITH HER SO SHE AGREED IT WAS A GOOD IDEA SO WE WAS GOING GREAT.

AND I HAD STARTED SMOKING CANIBIS AND DRINKIN AT THE AGE OF 16 WITH MY MUM WHICH ISNT GREAT BUT I WAS IN DENIAL BECAUSE I KNEW IT WASNT A GOOD IDEA MOVING BACK IN. THEN ONE DAY I HAD AN ARGUMENT WITH HER BOYFRIEND ABOUT MONEY AND I ENDED UP IN A FIGHT WITH HIM SO SHE THREW A PORTABLE STERIO AT ME N BROKE MY ARM (I HAD TO AV TWO PINS PUT IN MY ARM!) THEN I REALISED SHE HADNT CHANGED! NOW I AM LIVING ON MY OWN GETTING ON WITH MY LIFE AND I JUS WROTE THIS TO INSPIRE OTHER YOUNG PEOPLE LIKE MYSELF WHO HAVE BEEN THROUGH BAD TIMES I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW IT DOES GET EASIER.